Looking Toward the Future

I feel a need to blog right now...does that make me an official blogger or something?!? I originally intended this blog to be an update about my pregnancy and the boys, and while it will still serve that function, I'll admit, it's become a bit like therapy for me, especially after rough days at the hospital.  So as the boys continue to improve and eventually come home (we WILL be partying when that happens), I figure this will transition into something more of a glimpse into what is sure to be come a crazy life! 

It's been a bit since I last posted and it seems a lot has happened.  It's been a very emotional day for me, as I officially resigned my position at Haworth to become a full time mom to 4 beautiful children.  I consider myself so blessed to be given my kids, especially 3 at once, and feel this is what I am supposed to do at this point in my life.  If you had asked me when I was graduating college where I would be in 10 years, I would not have said a mother of four.  But, I guess someone way more powerful than me had different plans, and who I am to try to fight it?  Now I am sure there will be moments of regret about giving up a job I truly enjoyed doing with people I enjoyed working with (just a minor freak out in the car on my way home).  I am also 100% sure there will be moments when I am going out of my mind with three little boys running around and crave adult interaction. I am also terrified about running a household with four kids and one income, but as my mom says, I just have to embrace the challenge and make a game out of seeing how much we can do with less.  The important thing is everyone is happy and healthy, the rest will come.


I haven't been to the hospital yet today, probably make that trip soon, but I can report the boys are doing so well and improving every day!  Brennen has surpassed the 5lb. mark and is 5lbs. 4oz., Graham is a monster 7lbs. 8 oz., and Liam is 5lbs. 14oz.  It is so fun to see their little personalities develop.  Of course they will probably laugh when reading this in the future at what I THINK they will be like!

Brennen, off CPAP!

Brennen is now off his awful CPAP and on nasal cannula.  He is doing so well and makes me happy that I stepped up and fought for his right to move forward when the docs wanted to keep him on CPAP.  I am just overcome with emotion when I look at him and think back to just a month ago when he was fighting so hard against the staph infection.  I must say he has a lot of spunk and lets you know immediately when he needs changed.  He has to have all that spirit to overcome what he has gone through.


Graham is continuing to learn how to nipple and slowly improving.  His laid back 'tude just makes me smile, but I also hope it doesn't get in the way of him coming home, because I know he can do it if he would just wake up for feedings!


Liam is now off oxygen and breathing all on his own.  I was able to nurse him last night for the first time ever and it was a wonderful to be able to relax with him.

Graham, in a milk coma

Last week we had the best night at the hospital with Addie.  She held Liam for over an hour and it was like the mutual admiration society.  Liam just stared and Addie and she right back.  She held him during one of his feedings, which normally cause him a lot of distress, but with her, he sailed through and did not have one alarm.  While she was holding Liam, I held Graham and Brandon held Brennen.  I pictured that it could be like that a lot at home! Addie went to school the next day and told everyone that she got to hold one of her brothers, but she wasn't sure which one, but he stared at her the whole time! 


Addie is a lucky girl and gets to spend the week in Indiana with her grandparents.  She'll be 4 years old on Monday and wants to have a My Little Pony party.  I am so proud of her and how she is adapting to becoming a big sister.

Addie and Liam

Just to solidify my new position as domestic engineer (or whatever they call stay-at-home mom's these days) I  just tackled the monumental task of doing dishes and cleaning out the refrigerator.  Sadly enough, cleaning can also be very therapeutic!



Okay, I am finished gushing about my kiddos.  This day seems impossibly long, although it's only 7:15, but writing it all out makes me feel so much better, and secure in my decision.  So thanks for caring!