Slow and Steady

Slow and Steady...that is the mantra I keep repeating over and over in my head.  You see, I had an it in my mind that the boys would start coming home at a certain time (like next week) based on what the doctor had told us, and now it is clear that is not going to happen.  I just can't even describe the unsettled feeling I have, and don't think it will go away until Brennen, Graham and Liam are all home (and we have the cribs set up and a mini van purchased).  

Things have not changed much over the past weeks, just VERY SLOW.  Brennen is still on CPAP and it breaks my heart every day to see him to miserable. It's kind of a chore to get him out to hold him, but it's well worth it when he settles in falls fast asleep on my chest. The doc is hoping to try him off next week, so I am praying he will do well and be able to breathe with the help of the nasal cannula.  Graham is breathing on his own, and it sounds very simple to say all he has to do is learn how to eat and he can come home.  BUT, the little guy is very laid back and likes to sleep a lot rather than wake up to eat!  I think he has it figured out that if he doesn't take a bottle, he'll still get his fill delivered right to his tummy!  Liam is on nasal cannula, and seems to be the most alert and curious of the three, but his breathing is not slow enough to try to give him a bottle, so for now, he's just hanging out looking around with his wide inquisitive eyes!  

I would prefer not to be a regular at the children's hospital, but for now, that is our life.

Lil' Brennen, taking a peek

Cute smile from Graham

Liam taking a rest

Big sister Addie at the zoo